pieces of my heart

Made this for anniversary.. to wish you..

The Happy Family

 In Saskatoon- April 2008 ( shovons birthday). so there was a theme... Bhiya decided we would all act like little ( reallly bhodro) kids who are overexcited about birthday and the cake..before cutting the cake Arif and Bhiya took their sweet time to brush their hair sideways (used lots of water as a temporary solution instead of gel because it was easier)  and buttoned up his shirt up to neck. Shovon was feeling really shy :).. it was really a good funny birthday. posting 2 pictures from this day to show how ridiculous it was. 

(it made people think why were we acting like the way we were acting in the pictures before they got an explanation)

 In Saskatoon- April 2008 ( shovon's birthday). Everyone decided to stare at the cake (like we see in the pictures from old times where little kids all stare at the cake together)

In Saskatoon December 3rd, 2008 (opal's birthday)

In Saskatoon January 2009. Ayaan's 1st birthday

Saskatoon- January 2010, Ayaan's 2nd birthday

Regina- (2009) first tour.. drove two hours to have tastey kababs in Afghan resturant. This was taken in front of Parliament Building. Everyone told Nabu bhabi that, regina was saskatoon's second downtown and its quiet far away because saskatoon is a 'megacity'. :) ( Shakeeb and Arif were there also but went somewhere else at that time)

Qurbanir Eid - All of us together in 2009

March 12th,2010- when we first saw our angel

March 12th, 2010 - a joy and happiness felt by each of us     :)
'Welcome Norah-moni' 

Except for the Regina tour all the pictures were taken at Bhiya's home

You are so true my friend !!!

Imon used to tell me-"We might left our friends or love one thousand miles away from here, we might not saw them in years; but I feel friendship always stays in same position where we last felt it. We may make new friendships over time but old one always stays in same lovable place, it's like old picture- everything stays same."---- u r so true my friend !!!

for last 1 hour...i have been trying to write something about u...but i cant write any. in fact i am confused which one i should write....

i know u since 2001...from IUT...lots of memories...in IUT...that time its mainly related to cricket...and believe me...i used to thank myself at that time that i am not playing against you...first i met you when i went to masum bhai's room...u came to the room and started giving me advise...and for the first time in my life...advise aint boring to me..

i was going through your emails that u sent me in last few years...usually i delete old texts...but for some reason i kept all of your text msg...i go through ur emails and ur texts every now and then....

i have to write some other day...to talk about u...to say how extra ordinary person you were....

bhaiya...i really miss that voice...kire mota khobor ki tor....

My Bhiya

    It was my first year in University of Saskatchewan. It felt like the worst place to live in. Such a small city, nowhere to go and there was nothing to do.  It was end of September, first or second day of roja. Arif informed me that, Mehedi bhai will be visiting us from calgary  to Saskatoon and two other bhiyas (brothers) would also come. Yes! finally very excited that, calgarians will come to visit us. It was September 29^th 2006, they reached Saskatoon very late at night in Arif’s place. So I didnt get to meet them the first day. The next day I already had a plan from long time ago to go to puja with one of my friend from school. So I decided to go to puja first and I was sure by the time I came back from puja, everyone will be up by then. It was noon, when Arif called that, they would come straight to puja to meet me and have brunch there too. It took them a while to find the temple. Finally they were here. This was the very first day I met him, my bhiya, Imon bhiya. A very tall guy wearing sunglasses and a very tight black t-shirt. Imon bhiya, Shawkat bhiya, Ruman and Mehedi bhiya, they all drove down to Saskatoon just for fun.  So we had our introduction and talking part first, then we had lunch together.  After I ditched my friends :p, went with bhiyas to look around in the university.

       It wasn’t winter yet so the weather was great. We were all standing outside of my dorm building, enjoying the weather and talking about random stuff. Mostly bhiya was talking and we we were listening and laughing to his jokes and funny comments. I remember very well that I didnt understand half of the things he was saying as he was talking soooooo fast (I am sure you all know what I mean). Mostly, he was making fun of Saskatoon and how awesomely boring this city was J. Plus they just moved from Montreal to Calgary. Therefore Saskatoon made a huge difference.

      Next day we (Sanita and I) went over to Arif’s place to say hi and bye as well to them (because it was their last night before leaving off to Calgary). We had dinner, adda and Sanita sang. It was a great night. We all had good times. and not to mention that I was used to his talking so fast by then and I understood pretty much everything he said after a while. Bhiya ‘pochafyed’ me and sanita a lot. Specially me because its another story:

Before going to arif's place: I told sanita i don’t wanna go there all by myself  because when all the guys are in one place, they talk about weird stuff and make dirty jokes’ ( thats how my guy friends are so i made this comment)

So sanita that night told bhiyas something like, so you know miki didnt wanna come cause she thinks you guys talk dirty. lol
      

        Yes i felt like going thousands feet under the ground as it was one of the most embarrassing moment of my life. I didnt know bhiyas that well at that time, it was first meeting basically and right front of them given them wrong impression. I certainly didnt think that negative.

So after that Imon bhiya kept bugging me with “ tui amake luiccha mone korish? Ami luiccha?” ever since then he would bug me by saying this over and over again.

     He even sent me an email once when i said bye to him before leaving Calgary: “tui dekhi luichcha bhaider theke joto taratari shombhob mukti petechash”

I have never met anyone who can make people so close that easily. It was our first meeting yet he managed to say tui and called me apu. I never felt so comfortable with anyone in the first meeting like I did with my bhiya. He made jokes, laughed and made all of us laugh so hard. He was the most liveliest person I have ever come across off. He is special and he will always be special. He is and will always be here in my heart, in my prayer and in my mind...always!!!! My bhiya. 

Front of administration Building. September 30th,2006 

Agriculture Building. September 30th, 2006

Your Smile, like sunshine through Rainy Days,
    sprinkles laughter as we lose ourselves in memories

...

It was a year ago. December 3rd, 2009. I was working at the mall on my birthday. All I did was stand there for 8 hours and take pictures of kids with Santa. December is a crazy time to go to the mall. I used to be annoyed by hundreds of people. Sometimes I just wanted to quit and go home. As I was thinking of quitting, I felt a tap on my head and heard “opla, tor phone ta de”. Without realizing who was talking to me I took my phone out of my pocket. It was vaiya. In a hyperactive mood as always. He needed to call Vabi because she had his phone. I could see how tired he was through his eyes. Yet he came to the mall with vabi and her visiting friend Jen from US. Before I could say anything he just ran. I couldn’t take my eyes off vaiya, because he ran funny. Right hand over his shoulder bag. Left hand over his right shoulder just to make sure his office bag doesn't fall off. I was sure the only thing on his mind was if Vabi was worried or got lost in the mall. There was nothing in the world that could make him realize that vabi was a smart young women who was born in USA. There was no way she could get lost anywhere in Saskatoon. The city we all used to make fun of. But ended up living here one by one. When I was entertaining myself watching Vaiya run. All I could think of how heavy can his bag be?

I woke up in the morning. Had my usual morning. But something was missing. It was July 11th, 2010. I suppose to be really excited for Spain being in the world cup final match today. But I wasn’t. I don’t remember much about that morning. Except when I was at vabi’s house in Dhaka. It’s a beautiful peaceful neighborhood in the core of Dhaka University. At first I was wondering why there is two ambulance in front of the house. I remember two things from that day. First one was my feet. I was staring at my feet all the time. All the emotions drained down my body and probably got crushed by my own feet. I couldn’t go close to anyone. Some people would come and ask how I am and how I know vaiya. Because I am from saskatoon. After couple of hours there were hundreds of people. I wanted to scream and tell everyone to go away, yet I didn’t had the energy in me. People kept on coming. And I kept on holding myself. After a while my chest was so heavy, I literally couldn't stand anymore. That was the first time I felt any emotions. I knee down on grass, hands over my face and started crying quietly. I bite down my finger so no one could hear me. I wondered why my chest feels so heavy. I thought there was nothing heavier in life. When the time came I went to pick vaiya up. As I was trying to carry him, all my emotions from last couple of weeks just rushed out of me. That made me realize there is absolutely nothing in this world which is heavier than vaiya and vabi at the moment. After I felt both of their weight I went numb again.

I just wanted one more hug from vaiya. I just wanted one of smile from vabi. I wish I wasn’t bound to any culture, tradition or religion. I wish there wasn’t anyone around me. I would never let them go. I never wanted to carry them into a dark hole.

Before I let vaiya go. I smiled and told him “you think your office bag was heavy? You should feel the weight you gave me today.”

I missed you today. I missed making stupid jokes with you. I missed being a complete idiot with you. I missed laughing without any reason with you.